Just got back not long ago from our Chinese New Year event. It was okay.. though there's much room for improvement. On my part, i think i could have handled some things a lot better, but still.. i think i fulfilled what was asked of me. I'm not really satisfied with HER performance. I mean, you are technically the representative of our society, so shouldn't you at least show your face for like... most part of the event? Aiya, i don't know la.

And honestly, maybe cause I'm too picky or what, but Singaporeans here are just... different. I would think maybe i find it hard to get along with people because I already have a group of friends that I can rely on, so i don't find the need to get that close to new friends. But i don't think it's the case anymore. I've met new friends whom i can get along with and who i can say are people i'll be close to for the next decade.. but people here, they'll be gone from my life as soon as i graduate. Not the kind that i would keep in contact with, not the kind that i would say, 'hey, let's meet up and catch up!' I'm just talking about the Singaporeans here. People who grew up in the same environment, who were immersed in the same culture, but regardless, so very different.

It's so sad. And i do try, but we are all of different natures that don't match that well. I mean, we all get along but not swimmingly well.

Aiya. Pek chek. Just dampened my mood. I really wanted a cigarette just now (i know, becoming a bad habit) because i felt so FUUUUUUUUUU. I know, i know, I'm not going to. I replaced it with a glass of red wine. Calming my nerves. I think working out really does improve your mood. Really wanna work out now just to sweat all these emotions out.

I wanna spend chinese new year with people i love :( Jiggy, just 1.5 more years and you'll be out of here!! These 3 years will no doubt be one of the best experiences of my life, but I can't stand being away from my friends and family.