2012

Another new year awaits us!

2011 wasn't the best, neither was it the worst.. but it was definitely life-changing. I got to do many things I never thought I would ever do, and I am extremely thankful. My family isn't exactly rich, but I have a mother who is really hardworking and loving. She does all she can to make all of our dreams come true. I am where I am today because of her. She gave me the chance to go after my dreams and to see the world. Thank you mummy. I am eternally grateful and forever indebted to you. I won't fail you.

2011 milestones:
1. I TRAVELED!
Paris, Italy, Greece and Spain.
I got to see many places that I've always dreamed of seeing.. and there are many more on my list. Germany, I'm definitely heading your way this year!

2. Durham
Ended my 1st year in Durham... Honestly, my grades weren't great. They were really disappointing actually. I'm really hoping that i'll do a whole lot better this year with anthropology out of the way (i don't like studying kinship systems.. wtf boring) and sofar.. based on the grades I've gotten for my formative work (WHY FORMATIVE?!!), I'm doing really well. So fingers crossed that the quality of work i produce for my formative works will be suffice for summatives!

Grades aside, in terms of my social well-being.. I was pretty much a recluse for the better part of the year. I kept to myself a lot, I didn't really like going out and I was homesick for most of the time. Miserable, really really miserable.

My 2nd year started off pretty well. Most of the people i hang out with now are the ones I am comfortable with. I can be myself with them, even though i still hold back a lot of who i really am, but i think they bring out a different side of me that's more understanding and compassionate. They made me love Durham. I love my house and I'm glad to say that I have two homes now.

So in a nutshell, I hated the UK for many reasons in my 1st year.. and I've made a lot of progress now. I'll definitely miss the UK when i leave, and i may end up going back again.. who knows? If everything goes according to plan, I might set foot there again.

3. Pintia, Spain
July 2011 is one of the best experience of my life, probably THE best.
I got to meet people from America, Australia, New Zealand and Spain. Before I went, I was scared as fuck because the English I've met till then weren't the nicest or realest people in the world. What if they were the same? And if they were, i have to spend a WHOLE FUCKING MONTH with them. But they were all amazing (well, most of them anyway..) and I got to say, Pintia was the best decision I made in 2011.

Apart from the fact that they were all physically beautiful, they taught me to live with a more carefree attitude. The first few days, I kept to myself and it honestly took the fun out of a lot of things. And me being me, I only started to open up after a night of drunkass fun (which i ruined when i started bawling... fuck you nerves!). All the people I've met there are now my family and I couldn't be happier.

They taught me how to love and how to live.

4. Relationships
I spent a better part of the year hating myself because I didn't have the courage. I'm sorry for all the pain I caused... but that was one of the unhappiest points of my life that was all my fault. Not anyone, just me. I didn't mean to drag anyone down with me, I didn't mean to hurt anyone. I can't say how sorry I am, but that's the only thing I can say.

I met someone new now.. or should i say, I've known him forever, i just started to like him recently. He's the dude version of me.. except he is way more annoying on every level. Nothing is defined yet, we're just hanging out but who knows, right? 2011 taught me to take chances, and from those chances.. there were quite a number that were bad bad bad decisions, and most of those bad decisions were made because i followed my heart... so yeah, don't always follow your heart because it's way too optimistic and lacks logic.



Here's my resolutions for 2012
1. Think more with your mind, not your heart.. because sofar, your heart has shown to make bad choices.
2. Exercise more. Please at least go back to your original fatty weight and not your fatass weight now.
3. Don't harp on what you lack, instead remember and be thankful for all that you have.
4. STUDY HARDER!
5. Make more effort to look after your body... eat and drink better!
6. Maybe blog a little more?
7. Don't dwell on things. Just suck it up and move on.